Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Uni Night

Won't be going home to cook tonight, have to stay back in university to do some work. Another dinnerless night --- I know it's bad, but I've bought plenty of biscuits and cookies, and some fruits.

Was doing the movie clip of the Praise Team Practice while I was running some experiments as well. Today, my experiment requires high manual intervention, basically every 10 minutes I have to go to the lab and click the button....so ridiculous. Well, what to do, this is so called lab work. So I can't sit down properly and concentrate on real work. Experiment + movie clip is what I've done. : )

Kinda of funny and touched when I myself watch the movie clip again. These people are just so energetic and passionate. They are a team of soldier, a team of hyper soldiers and preparing to fight for Lord.

Haii..youth fellowship ar youth fellowhsip ar.... when shall we revive again ???? Hope the Junior Youth can stimulate us....

Tomorrow is the start of Lent Season..."Entering Into Silence".... Need to pray desperately for my important day on 9th March (Thursday).

Sunday, February 26, 2006

The Season Of Lent

Next Wednesday (01/03/2006) is the beginning of the Lent season. I quoted some definitions about this season, since they will explained it better than I do :-)

“Ash Wednesday is the first day of the Season of Lent and begins with the imposition of ashes ~ Both ashes and fasting are ancient symbols of penance common in the Old Testament, symbols that are referred to by Jesus in the New Testament. Lent is the Church Season given to us for penance, reflection and fasting ~ a way of turning to God with our whole hearts ~ in preparation for the glorious Resurrection of Our Lord, Jesus Christ.”

“Lent is a season of soul-searching and repentance. It is a season for reflection and taking stock. Lent originated in the very earliest days of the Church as a preparatory time for Easter, when the faithful rededicated themselves and when converts were instructed in the faith and prepared for baptism. By observing the forty days of Lent, the individual Christian imitates Jesus’ withdrawal into the wilderness for forty days. All churches that have a continuous history extending before AD 1500 observe Lent. The ancient church that wrote, collected, canonized, and propagated the New Testament also observed Lent, believing it to be a commandment from the apostles.”

I am quite excited about the coming Lent season this year, maybe because I am more aware of it, and also the need of reflection of my Christian life. The coming forty days, I want to know God all over again, and much more. The need to draw close to Him, the need to sacrifice and give up on sins....needs lot of faith and determination. I wonder, in these forty days, can I not to get angry unnessarily, not to be greedy, not to gossip!, not to be selfish, plus to give up computer games or watching too much TV!!! I’m already feel the pain having to cut back TV :-p....oddly but I know these things draw me away from God. Instead, I truly want a forty days full of joy, gratefulness, peace and love. And of course not only 40 days, but the rest of my life’s journey. It is really going to be a battle, but I want to put it as a battle that I know I will win at the end.

So, do you have something you want to try to give up these forty days to be closer to God? It is a good time to think about it now. I added something below for your reading of the forty days.

God Bless.
~totoro~

Stillness in Lent: Day By Day
“Be still and know that I am God” (Ps. 46:10) is a powerful primer of prayer. God is. God is God. The God of all ages is the God of our friends and of our enemies, neither of our creation nor under our control. Anything we say about God is only an approximation, for God is most definitely Other. Lent is a time to recognize and be present to God “the other” in the depth and silence of our hearts. In that stillness await the mystery of the Resurrection.

Ash Wednesday: Entering into silence
Jl 2:12-18; 2 Cor 5:20—6:2; Mt 6:1-6, 16-18) Lent invites us to silence in God’s presence. Jesus tells us to go to our inner rooms, to close the door and pray to our Father in secret. There we must first acknowledge our utter dependence on God. As Lent begins, pray for that grace.

Thursday: Recognizing the Cross
Dt 30:15-20; Lk 9:22-25) Sometimes we mistake loneliness for holy silence with God. Since loneliness is a part of the Cross of life, we bear it willingly when we must. But we need not avoid other people completely to be holy. Jesus speaks today about self-denial. Hear him explain that we do not save our lives for ourselves.

Friday: Understanding fasting
(Is 58:1-9a; Mt 9:14-15) Lent is a time for fasting, and fasting can be a positive and joyful experience. Yes, the bridegroom will leave us, but we know he is with us eternally. How can we grow closer to God? Think of positive ways to fast for Lent.

Saturday: Healing
(Is 58:9b-14; Lk 5:27-32) Jesus knows we need healing, of physical illness, of painful memories, perhaps of a sinful past. Healing does not always mean forgetting or disappearing. Ask Jesus to heal whatever separates you from peaceful silence with God.

First Sunday of Lent: Starting and stopping
(Mt 4:1-11 [Cycle A]; Mk 1:12-15 [B]; Lk 4:1-13 [C])Just a few days into Lent and already we are tired. There are so many other things to pursue: riches, honor, pride. Just for today, imagine you are standing alone with Jesus in the desert. What tempts you to quit your Lenten resolve? Ask Jesus to help you continue.

Monday: Who is Jesus?
(Lv 19:1-2, 11-18; Mt 25:31-46) Matthew’s Gospel has lots of practical advice. Here Jesus explains how to find him. If we feed the hungry, give drink to the thirsty, welcome the stranger, clothe the naked and visit the imprisoned, we have made a good start in locating Jesus in our midst. Recognize your own and others’ hunger, thirst, aloneness, embarrassment and imprisonment. See Jesus in others and in yourself.

Tuesday: How to pray
(Is 55:10-11; Mt 6:7-15) Today Jesus teaches a stunning lesson. The Our Father we say so easily is truly a pledge of dependence on God and God’s will. If we see God in all things, we can better understand what Jesus is teaching us to say. Pray the Our Father a few times today.

Wednesday: Signs and signals
(Jon 3:1-10; Lk 11:29-32) Collectively we like to be affirmed in our beliefs. We want to see our understandings of faith and morals triumph all about. But often the world does not recognize Jesus as Son of God, any more than the people of an earlier age recognized Jonah. Ask for the grace to resist some worldly denial of Christ that attracts you.

Thursday: Persistence is a virtue
(Est C:12, 14-16, 23-25; Mt 7:7-12) Evil often suggests that persistence is mere stubbornness, and that you should just give up trying to do God’s will. But Jesus promises that persistent knocking will open the door, that persistent prayer will grant you good things. Pay attention to the persistent needs of those about you, and answer them as Jesus might.

Friday: Making peace
(Ez 18:21-28; Mt 5:20-26) There is no sense in trying to ignore anger when we pray. When that anger is directed at another person, we must try to make peace if we can and forgive the other in the stillness of our hearts. Recognize the interior peace that comes from praying for enemies.

Saturday: Loving others
(Dt 26:16-19; Mt 5:43-48) It is easy to love distant enemies. Pride often reminds us how well we pray for the opponent in war or in politics. How much harder it is to love the one who hurts you. We do not need to excuse or forget, but we must always forgive. Pray for that grace.

Second Sunday of Lent: Keep moving
(Dn 9:4b-10; Lk 6:36-38) Jesus teaches us to live honestly. If we do not judge, condemn or withhold forgiveness, neither will we be judged, condemned nor unforgiven. Ask in silence to understand, rather than judge, the person who puzzles us.

Tuesday: Humility 101
(Is 1:10, 16-20; Mt 23:1-12) Humility is crucial to the Lenten journey, and it is truly difficult to be humble. Often we really do know more than the next person. But to see everyone through God’s eyes is to see the humble Jesus before us. If we can do that, we are beginning to be humble.

Wednesday: Status symbols
(Jer 18:18-20; Mt 20:17-28) Jesus is the Son of God, but he is as helpless as the rest of us in the human condition. He tells his followers that he will be killed. Who will be the next leader? Jesus surprises them and us by insisting that the leader is the servant. How does that echo in your life?

Thursday: Serving and being served
(Jer 17:5-10; Lk 16:19-31) We can apply the parable of poor Lazarus to organizations, nations and ourselves. If we consume everything and leave nothing for the poor, we will have consumed our rewards as well. Look for an opportunity to quietly share time and material goods with someone else.

Friday: Watching and waiting
(Gn 37:3-4, 12-13a, 17b-28a; Mt 21:33-43, 45-46) Jesus’ death approaches. Like the vineyard owner, God first sent prophets and then his own Son. All were ignored, and this parable foretells Jesus’ death. Allow yourself to feel dismay at the way the world continues to ignore Jesus.

Saturday: Hope survives
(Mic 7:14-15, 18-20; Lk 15:1-3, 11-32) Hope is central to a life of faith and charity. The father found his lost son, but only because the lost son trusted his father would receive him. If we neglect hope, depression may overtake our good efforts. Ask to better learn the virtue of hope.

Third Sunday of Lent: Give yourself a chance
(Jn 4:5-52 [A]; Jn 2:13-25 [B]; Lk 13:1-9 [C]) Today’s Gospel speaks about conversion. We all have a chance to “turn it around.” The Samaritan woman, the money changers in the Temple and the poor, barren fig tree remind us of the second chance God gives. No matter how the days of Lent have gone so far, let this week mark a new beginning and a fresh start on the journey.

Monday: Jealousy
(2 Kgs 5:1-15a; Lk 4:24-30) Lent is a time to quietly examine our relationships with others, as well as with the Lord. We often get a bit too critical of one another, especially of those closest to us. What “prophet” have you run out of your life lately? And why?

Tuesday: Forgiveness
(Dn 3:25, 34-43; Mt 18:21-35) If we cannot forgive other people, how can we forgive ourselves? Jesus tells us to forgive the brother or sister who sins against us 77 times. That’s a lot of forgiving! Ask for the grace to keep up with Jesus’ command.

Wednesday: Rules
(Dt 4:1, 5-9; Mt 5:17-19) Jesus reminds us today that there are boundaries in every part of life. If we ignore those boundaries—if we break the rules—we will meet some punishment. Ask God to give you a healthy response to the law of God.

Thursday: Siding with Jesus
(Jer 7:23-28; Lk 11:14-23) Jesus tells us there are two sets of people in life: those who are with him and those who are against him. Sometimes the problem is figuring out who’s who. Ask for the wisdom to see things through Jesus’ eyes.

Friday: Loving
(Hos 14:2-10; Mk 12:28b-34) The most difficult task in learning to see things as Jesus does is also the easiest: We must look with loving eyes. If we say we love the Lord, we must also try to love each other. Try that, just for today.

Saturday: Remembering the essentials
(Hos 6:1-6; Lk 18:9-14) There is nothing worse than the person who is proud of how humble he is. The Pharisee has that sort of silly response to life. The poor tax collector knows who he is and what he has done. Jot down a few notes about who you are this Lent, and thank the Lord for self-knowledge.

Fourth Sunday of Lent: Rejoice!
(Jn 9:1-41 [A]; Jn 3:14-21 [B]; Lk 15:1-3, 11-32 [C]) Last Thursday marked the midpoint of Lent, and today the Church celebrates Laetare Sunday, a happy day of encouragement in the midst of the long fast. Today there may be flowers on the altar and music at Mass. The priest and deacon wear rose-colored vestments. Hear God’s joyful encouragement to you this day.

Monday: Healing and trust
(Is 65:17-21; Jn 4:43-54) The concrete example of today’s Gospel echoes in our own lives: Jesus has told this man his child will live. How often do we silently hear God’s promise, and remain afraid? Ask God to help you believe his promises.

Tuesday: The world does not understand
(Ez 47:1-9, 12; Jn 5:1-16) Jesus broke the rules by healing on the Sabbath, and the sick man broke the rules by carrying his mat. Often God’s rules override those of the world, but the world does not understand. Pray to accept your experiences of God’s way over the ways of the world.

Wednesday: This is for real
(Is 49:8-15; Jn 5:17-30) Jesus’ accusers are furious. He healed on the Sabbath and he called God his Father. Jesus knows the consequences, but he does not back down. We live in the same tension with the world. Resolve to stand your ground.

Thursday: Confusion
(Ex 32:7-14; Jn 5:31-47)Parts of the Gospel of John are very confusing. Today Jesus speaks in a confusing way about confusion. Who to believe? Who to listen to? Quietly offer your own confusion to the Lord, and ask for light.

Friday: Recognizing Christ
(Wis 2:1a, 12-22; Jn 7:1-2, 10, 25-30) Jesus’ time draws near, yet he continues to speak openly in the temple. Even though his enemies want to have him arrested, he remains free, because his time has not yet come. Pray to understand that no one can silence the truth.

Saturday: Listening and watching
(Jer 11:18-20; Jn 7:40-53) Jesus continues to teach, and his enemies are all about. Only Nicodemus understands the most basic point: Jesus is innocent, and the law will not condemn an innocent person. Pray to speak in defense of the innocent.

Fifth Sunday of Lent: Prepare to rise
(Jn 11:1-45 [A]; 12:20-33 [B]; 8:1-11 [C]) We fear death. Both really and metaphorically death brings change. As we daily die to sin and selfishness, we prepare ourselves to rise with Christ at the time of our own natural deaths. Ask God to quiet any fears you may have.

Monday: Throwing stones
(Dn 13:1-9, 15-17, 19-30, 33-62; Jn 8:1-11) Jesus stops the crowd from stoning the woman, not because she is innocent of their claims, but because they are equally guilty of something. Try to find a reasonable explanation for some offense you think you see, and leave God to be the judge.

Tuesday: God is God
(Nm 21:4-9; Jn 8:21-30) Jesus further confounds the crowd. Who is he? “I AM.” Jesus is the Son of the Father. Be still, and know that God is God.

Wednesday: Children of God
(Dn 3:14-20, 91-92, 95; Jn 8:31-42) Jesus further confounds his followers. He is of God, and if they were children of God they would love him. How could they not? Meditate on your relationship to Jesus.

Thursday: The Son of God
(Gn 17:3-9; Jn 8:51-59) As Jesus moves closer to his death, his statements are more and more scandalous to the people. God is his Father, and he knows God while they do not. Humbly accept that thought from Jesus, and ask him to teach you about his Father.

Friday: Works of the Father
(Jer 20:10-13; Jn 10:31-42) Again they pick up rocks to stone Jesus. His self-defense is simple: Either he performs the Father’s works or he does not. Believe or disbelieve according to those terms. The simple folk across the Jordan believe. Ask for quiet simplicity in your faith.

Saturday: Hiding
(Ex 37:21-28; Jn 11:45-56) Caiaphas’s interests are political: Jesus troubles the delicate balance of power in Jerusalem. Jesus knows his enemies and has left Jerusalem. Will he come back for the Passover? Allow yourself to feel the anguish Jesus felt in knowing what lay ahead.

Holy Week/Palm Sunday
(Mt 26:14—27:66 [A]; Mk 14:1—15:47 [B]; Lk 22:14—23:56 [C]) Jesus returns to Jerusalem riding on a simple beast, and he is hailed as “King of the Jews.” The good news of his gospel is a joyful reformation of the law. He claims to be the Son of God, and he promises everlasting life for all. He is unstoppable. Join in welcoming him.

Monday: Preparing for death
(Is 42:1-7; Jn 12:1-11) Today’s Gospel returns us to Bethany, where Mary, Martha and their raised brother Lazarus live. Mary takes the precious oil usually used for burial preparations and pours it on Jesus’ feet. Does she recognize how close his death is? Do something today for someone you love.

Tuesday: Betrayal and denial
(Is 49:1-6; Jn 13:21-33, 36-38) Jesus’ friends are still with him, and Peter says he will never betray Jesus. He clearly believes what he says. Silently understand how often you have said the same.

Wednesday: Spy Wednesday
(Is 50:4-9a; Mt 26:14-25) This day was once called “Spy Wednesday,” the day Judas is exposed. Judas has taken 30 pieces of silver to betray Jesus, yet he still eats with him. Understand Jesus’ anguish, and the confusion of the apostles at this revelation.

Triduum
Holy Thursday: This is my body
(Ex 12:1-8, 11-14; 1 Cor 11:23-26; Jn 13:1-15) Today consider the body of Christ. The washed feet belong to the body of Christ. The blessed bread actually becomes the body of Christ. It is offered with the simple words: “The body of Christ.” Be, and continue to become, what you receive.
Good Friday: This is my blood
(Is 52:13—53:12; Heb 4:14-16, 5:7-9; Jn 18:1—19:42) Jesus’ blood washes across the centuries as a salve for sin. Yet we cannot stand to watch his suffering in our mind’s eye. Allow yourself to know his suffering, and keep that sense of compassion for all who suffer.
Easter Vigil: The tomb is empty
(Mt 28:1-10 [A]; Mk 16:1-7 [B]; Lk 24:1-12 [C]) Holy Saturday is a time of waiting and watching, trusting, hoping that Jesus’ words were God’s promise. Wait and watch with the women in belief, and rejoice!
By Phyllis Zagano

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

What A Waste

I was recently impressed but disappointed by the biography of the great Mathematician, John Nash. Really impressed me when he could wrote a 27 pages PhD thesis at his age of 21, titled "Non-Cooperative Games". His famous "Game Theory" and "Nash Equilibrium" at that time won him the Nobel Prize in Economics Science 45 years later in 1994, when nowadays many people are utilising his theory in various applications ranging from Economics to military purposes.

Was trying hard to understand his Game Theory, seems like a great piece of work, totally genius !! What shocked me the most is the true life story of John Nash. A young and talented genius, but end up getting mad and diagnosed with mental illness (schizophrenia) for his rest of the life. He's now recovered from his illness and is a professor in Princeston University. Really enjoyed reading his biography, and I supposed the film "Beautiful Mind" is definitely awesome too.

A life without God can be very successful and brilliant; on the other hand, a life without God can be soooo hopeless....

"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom" (Prov. 1:7)

Wise or smart? Which one you prefer?

Monday, February 20, 2006

Great Weekend

The praise song "I Pray" is not playing *sob sob*..well, can't complain much coz the website is free. Was trying hard to solve it, but still not working....perhaps the host doesnt like my song. Any other free movie uploading website??? Any recommendation?

I was running calibration test on my equipment. Apparently my equipment is not giving accurate reading, need to check it out. Hopefully is my calculation problem and not the apparatus's.


I had a great weekend I supposed. Starting from Saturday's tuition at 3pm, quite pity my students have to sit there 2 hours for Maths and Chemistry, I hope they can cope with the new style ---what to do, examsss coming !!! Better pity myself :p

Followed by the Fellowship at 5.30pm---a talk on Doctorine of God by Rev Ho. I thought we had a great discussion and am really impressed by the recent culture in the fellowship. They seem to think more critically than before, and surprisingly people actually brainstormed on the topic and some illustrations of Trinity which is so abstract and complicated. I really enjoyed the discussion and looking forward to the next week fellowship.

Sunday's bible study at morning was great, apart from I didn't actually finish my homework. I think I'm following the discussion so far and seriously need to do some intensive preparation and readingssss this week.


Then followed by Song Lead practise at 11.30am!!! Everyone did put in effort to arrive on time. To be frank, I was quite nervous on Sunday --- I seriously scared we would screw up the Song Lead during the service; but deep in my heart, I knew they will learn something out of it no matter what'd happened. It ended up very well I would say, judging from the aspect that this was their proper "first serve", and it's the first junior youth Song Lead (They called themselves "
Praise Team") in the King's Cross church history, thank you Lord !!! We shall keep going....

Praise team practice after the service was good. They are starting to learn new songs. Sometimes I wish I could play piano realllllly well, then I don't have to seek helpers desperately and wasting so much time, and perhaps I would be able teach these youngsters to become great pianistsss!!! I would if I could, but I can't !! shame ~~~~~


This is sooo unfair: God has granted good mentors to guide the youth fellowship, but no one care to learn ; on the other hand, God has also granted a group of talented and passionate junior youth, but there is no good mentorsss.


Perhaps it's not about fairness, it's about how we work it out !!! Please help us God....

Friday, February 17, 2006

7 Day

Hurray...it's weekend. Friday always seem like a relax day for me, although I still have to work hard on my experiment.

Anyhow, sometimes I feel I'm even busier on Saturday and Sunday with church activities, didn't actually feel "Sabbath" --- but I enjoy a lot, so no complain.

Why God only need 6 days to create the world? Why does He rest on the 7th? Does he really need to rest or just for the sake for human?

Heard that human in past history had tried to make 10-day a week or 5-day a week. Apparently the system didn't work well. The former system will make you exhaust and the latter will make you feel lazy. The so called "nature" has to follow a rule --- the rule from its Creator.

I'm looking forward to the Praise Team song leading this Sunday. Hope they will learn something from this.

Have a nice weekend.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Happy Birthday Mummy

Happy Valentine's Day to my dearest girlfriend, and of course, Happy Birthday to Mum; she was born on this special occasion.

I called home this morning to greet my mum, apparently she's taking care of my nephew coz he's got fever, and most surprisingly many of my brothers don't remember today is my mum's birthday ---- I don't think they care about Valentine's Day as well, even before they married. :p

I think all my simblings (including me) have inherited genetically from my dad. I can't remember when was the last time my dad celebrated birthday or Valentine's Day with mummy, but thank God that mummy has never complaint before (maybe she complaint to my aunties). Perhaps everyday seems like a special day to my family, or at least to my mum. We used to sit around the table and had dinner together (7 of us) every evening when we were young, we don't need special occasion to gather everyone like now.

I can't really remember all my brothers' birthday, and we don't usually celebrate birthday at home. We don't give each other gifts or greetings ---- we are just not used to express our love to each other in this way. Perhaps you would say we are weird or lack of communication, but I still insist we are a lovely and strong-binded family.

How can I prove this to you? Hmm.... I can't...Just like you can't prove the non-existence of God either. : )
I'm still learning how to express my emotion...bear with me.

A Valentine Story

Here is a very nice story to share, taken from the Chicken Soup For the Soul. Happy Valentine's Day to all.

Roses for Rose
By James A. Kisner
Submitted by Bonny Eiffert

Red roses were her favorites - her name was also Rose -And every year her husband sent them, tied with pretty bows.The year he died the roses were delivered to her door.The card said, "Be my Valentine," like all the years before.Each year he sent her roses, and the note would always say,"I love you even more this year than last year on this day.My love for you will always grow with every passing year."She knew this was the last time that the roses would appear.She thought, "He ordered roses in advance before this day."Her loving husband did not know that he would pass away.He always liked to do things early, way before the time.Then, if he got too busy, everything would work out fine.She trimmed the stems and placed them in a veryspecial vase,Then sat the vase beside the portrait of his smiling face.She would sit for hours, in her husband's favorite chair,While staring at his picture and the roses sitting there.A year went by and it was hard to live without her mate,With loneliness and solitude that had become her fate.Then, the very hour, as on Valentines before,The doorbell rang, and there were roses sitting by her door.She brought the roses in, and then just looked at themin shock,Then went to get the telephone, to call the florist shop.The owner answered and she asked him if he would explain,Why would someone do this to her, causing her such pain?"I know your husband passed away more than a year ago,"The owner said. "I knew you'd call, and you would want to know,The flowers you received today were paid for in advance.Your husband always planned ahead, he left nothing to chance."There is a standing order that I have on file down here,And he has paid well in advance; you'll get them every year.There also is another thing that I think you should know:He wrote a special little card . . . he did this years ago."Then, should ever I find out that he's no longer here,That's the card that should be sent to you the following year."She thanked him and hung up the phone, her tears now flowing hard,Her fingers shaking, as she slowly reached to get the card.Inside the card she saw that he had written her a note.Then, as she stared in total silence, this is what he wrote. . . ."Hello, my love, I know it's been a year since I've been gone,I hope it hasn't been too hard for you to overcome."I know it must be lonely, and the pain is very real,For if it were the other way, I know how I would feel.The love we shared made everything so beautiful in life.I loved you more than words can say. You were theperfect wife."You were my friend and lover, you fulfilled my every need.I know it's only been a year, but please try not to grieve.I want you to be happy, even when you shed your tears.That is why the roses will be sent to you for years."When you get these roses, think of all the happinessThat we had together, and how both of us were blessed.I have always loved you, and I know I always will.But, my love, you must go on, you have some living still."Please try to find happiness, while living out your days.I know it is not easy, but I hope you find some ways.The roses will come every year, and they will only stopWhen your door's not answered when the florist stops to knock."He will come five times that day, in case you have gone out.But after his last visit, he will know without a doubtTo take the roses to the place where I've instructed him,And place the roses where we are, together once again."

I Pray

禱告 因為我渺小 (I pray for I am nothing)
禱告 因為我知道我需要 ( I pray, for I clearly know what I need)
明瞭 你心意對我重要 (To seek Your will as it's shown to me)

禱告 已假裝不了 ( I pray, for I'm searching)
禱告 因為你的愛我需要 (I pray, for Your love is what I need)
你關懷 我走過的你都明白 (On my knees, through the valleys, You walk with me)

有些事我只想要對你說 (Somethings I only wanna let You know)
因你比任何人都愛我 (Coz no one loves me like You, my Lord)
痛苦從眼中流下 (Though tears of pain may fall out)
我知道你為我擦 (You're with me I have no doubt)

在早晨我要來對你說 (As day break Lord I wanna cry to You)
主耶穌今天我為你活 (Coz You so love me, You'll put me through)
所需要的力量你天天賜給我 (The strength that I receive every morning)
你恩典夠我用( Your grace is all I need)

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Sunny London

I look at the sky while I was walking to uni, the sky is clear and blue ---- morning was bright and with full of hope, although is freezing.

When you see no cloud, which means it's a freezing day, coz the cloud prevents the heat losing from the earth ; when you see clouds, the heat retain on the earth, but the sun cant shine through, and gives a dull day.

Light has amazing properties, in science we call "wave-particle" dual properties. Wave has a wavelength, particle has a mass.

So when light shines through the cloud, does the particle of light mix with the cloud particle, and does the light particle mix with the particle in the dust? If so can we characterise it?

People used to think that the motion of dust is a Brownian motion, meaning it's a random motion. But recently physicist manage to characterise the uncertainty motion of dust, they actually developed a model to show the random motion. (Well, you have to believe that people actually sit in the lab and "observe" the dust, and they get paid, i mean well paid !! : p)

So is there really a "random" or "uncertainty" principle? Random is no longer random, uncertainty is "certainly" recognised as uncertain.

The deeper you go, the closer you realise there's a CREATOR.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Good Humor

I think God has a very good sense of humor. God works in a 'funny' and effective way. At times, we may think that what we are doing seems pointless and others may be doubtful...like how I am feeling now with my work...definitely dont think I am sitting here for myself...but at least my heart wishes it is God's will I am here...but God always make the turnover when the time is right. Dont think I am waiting for something great to happen or to do super wondrous things for Him, cause everyday is a challenge just to be righteous in His ways. I need to get that Right. We just need to prepare ourselves I guess.

Here is a real story...you will know what I mean when I say God has a good humor ;-)..and I love to laugh side by side with God :-) . Everything is possible in Him.

In 1903 in a small Ohio town, Milton Wright, a minister in the Church of Christ, was looking for an appropriate sermon topic. He found his theme in a very unlikely place—a U.S. Patent Office report on the future. The report said that everything that could conceivably be invented had already been discovered. There are strict limits to human ingenuity, the report argued, and no major advances were likely to occur in the twentieth century.
Wright delivered a sermon based on that notion. At the end, a young man raised his hand and said, "You know something, sir, I believe that one day people will fly."
"Fly?" responded Minister Wright, "If God wanted us to fly, He would have given us wings; He would have made us angels; He would have made us birds. Let me assure you, you will not see people fly." The young man, however, got the last laugh. Three months later, Wright’s two sons, Orville and Wilbur, flew the first airplane, from Kitty Hawk, North Carolina.

~totoro~

Waking up

I was feeling so physically exhausted this morning. I could hardly pull myself to wake up, and go to work. In my mind, I was thinking of thousands of reason to skip work :p....really feel like a piggy.

The night before I read the book of Acts. I truly admire Paul. His faith, strength and determination really put me in shame.
Paul said this:
'However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace- Acts 20:24. '

The first thing that came to my mind immediately raise a few questions. I asked God, why Paul said these words. Where did he get all this faith and courage from...and then I wonder, there must be someone like Paul out there right now working hard for God...I hope there is :-)

Coming back to my story....Among all the things I thought of this morning, I suddenly remembered Paul. When this happened, I could feel a very brief strength came through me. This may sound silly, but if I can't even get out of my bed and face the day, how can I do God' task today.

So, I pray to God that today I may be a blessing to some people I meet.

~totoro~

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Silence is Golden

Was supposed to hang out with my brother this evening for a dinner and then watch a musical, but end up he texted me he's going to have dinner with his supplier. Well, finally a quiet night for me I supposed. Am going to do grocery later and will go back home to rest earlier tonight.

I am going to cook some nice food for myself tonight. It's been for days I didn't do any cooking.

My brother brought a Malaysian's newspaper for me. Reading at the job advertisement, I found the career opportunity in Malaysia still quite conservative and stagnant. What I meant is 5 years ago many were hiring engineers, sales or managers, which required degree level and working experience. Today, the job market is still the same, apart from some are looking for biotech people (but they only need masters).

In contrast to the job market in UK, I seriously find no hope in going back to "serve". It's either I become a Lecturer in the local uni, or I start a business (don't ask me what business am I gonna do), if I were to return Malaysia.

What's my girlfriend gonna do then?

Haii..no reason for me not to pray. Help me Lord.

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